The Fear of Being Seen: Starting from Zero

And so the journey begins…

I have felt the call to start a YouTube channel since 2022, but I always found a way to talk myself out of it. My usual pattern looks a little something like this:

1. Upload the first video.
2. Gain some views and maybe a few subscribers.
3. Feel the pressure rising… and promptly bail out.

But this time? This time, I am biting the bullet. I am committed to seeing this project through.

Overcoming the “Impostor” Mindset

If I’m being entirely honest, the fear of being seen is incredibly strong right now. It’s nerve-wracking.

Compounding that fear is the fact that I still have no idea what shape or form this blog and YouTube channel will take. I have a massive, eclectic web of new interests right now, including:

• Tarot & Oracle Reading
• Gnosticism
• Carl Jung & Analytical Psychology
• Mysticism

…and honestly, too many others to mention. Because these fields are so deep, I often feel like an impostor. I don’t have a formal “background” or a degree in these topics, which makes putting my thoughts out into the public eye feel terrifying.

Welcome to the Zero-Point Space

So, let’s just lay it all out there. This is my zero-point space.

Even though I cannot tell you exactly what this Blog or YouTube Channel will evolve into, I know what my mission is. I am going to:

• Document my journey authentically.
• Share valuable resources as I discover them.
• Embrace the learning process out loud.

If this project impacts, helps, or resonates with just one single person, then I will consider it “Mission Accomplished.”

Join the Journey

You don’t need to have it all figured out to start something new. If you can relate to the fear of stepping out of your comfort zone, or if you share a passion for the deeper, mystical sides of life, I invite you to take this unknown journey with me.

Let’s see where the path leads and let’s step into the unknown together.